Just Found

I was looking through what I have, and just found this poem.  I don't remember writing it - sounds pretentious, I know.  I figured it might as well be on here.  I will put some more poems from other writers on here soon as well, I promise.

Now I'm Free 

by Matt Catania 

I have seen the west

I wish I was younger with the same mind

I am not scared like I was then

not even two years ago when the thought

of moving away from home was

losing your family and home -

the world leaving you completely alone.

Now I’m practically begging to go

I wish I was younger with the same mind.

I want to start again, and

again and again

I want to start in every state

north and south, east and west

even through Canada to Alaska.  I want

my life to never stop being beginnings

now with my mind dying

to discover new things.

I was scared to stick my head out

I wanted to stay inside and look out the window.

I shed that thinking now.  Old skin.

I want my young skin with my new mind.

My mind isn’t so gray anymore.  It’s white.  With new

pink skin.  I have come to believe

the beginnings of everything might be the greatest things

with only a few exceptions that get better with age.

Love is an exception.

I want to keep my old love.  It keeps itself new.

I lust for a beginning, as lust is nothing but beginnings.

I don’t want that window anymore.  I want to drive

under those perfect sunsets again; only this time

I will follow them for the sunrise.  I won’t follow them

just to sleep.

I want to have my freshman year at every college.

I want those new eyes I once had, and to have them everywhere.

I am ready to begin every day.

I am still young, with a new mind.

I am ready to begin - if only I could get away.